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Jireh.
that's jai-ra for you.
it's Hebrew,but i'm not.
15 years old.
Glendale School;Quezon City Science HS;Dr.Henry A. Wise HS
Love.Faith.Unity.Peace.Courage.Fidelity
Darwin.Curie.Curie.i don't know what's next.
10th Grade.
Filipino.
singing.reading.drawing.internet.daydreaming.eating.
Jpop.Jdrama.Kpop.books.manga.anime.
House MD.
JAPAN.
Yamada Ryosuke = ♥

God.memories.books.love.

i don't feel safe at my school anymore.
there was a fight in our classroom today.
it was so violent.
this guy kept on beating up my classmate, and he was kicking and punching him really hard.
there was so much blood.
i wanted to cry and throw up at the same time.
it was just too much.

how am i supposed to feel safe if i know that anytime a person wants to beat me up, he/she could do it?
that's why i don't talk much.
call me an anti-social,but i'd rather have no friends than have potential enemies.

*sigh*
i'm really really really reeeeeeeeally stressed right now.
i want to cry.
it's almost summer break,but we still have a lot of work to do.
i still haven't finished my Art project,and i have to do a powerpoint presentation for Biology,and my groupmates want me to edit our uber crappy video for English,plus i have to learn three songs for Piano.
i feel like i have to do everything, like some weight is on my shoulder and i have to get it off.
i don't know what to do anymore.

all i know is that i have to get straight A's this school year,and the next,and the next,and the next.
God,i need a break.
send me to the Philippines,please?

Labels: fight, school, stress

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this one's gonna be long.
don't say i didn't warn you.

wooh!
only 2 more weeks, then summer!
yatta!

demooooooo~
i have so many things to do.
i still have to draw Mona Lisa and The Lady with an Ermine two times.
yes,two.
i'm not Leonardo da Vinci.-__________-
then i have to go to a classmate's house tomorrow for an English project.
and i have to complete my 80 question study guide for World History.
and i have to finish my Art mobile.
and i have to learn three songs for Piano class,which i don't know how to play because my teacher is always checking her mail and shopping online during class.
and i have to research for my Biology bioethics project.
help me Lord.

about that,i'm confused.
how the heck can i defend an issue i really, really hate?
me and my groupmates have to convince our other classmates that humans evolved from monkeys.
tae.
we didn't evolve from monkeys.
the Bible said so.
why are monkeys still monkeys today if they evolve?
why are there even monkeys today?!
help me Lord.

but anyway,i'm kind of pressured.
no,scratch that.
i AM pressured.
tons of assignments + parent's raised expectations [i was surprised they can go higher] = STRESS.
my mom and dad,who won't accept a B even in a progress report, just raised their expectations!
because of this article from the PGCPS website:
Gi-Ann Acosta, with a cumulative GPA of 4.17, has earned straight A’s throughout her high school career in Oxon Hill’s Science and Technology program. She will be attending University of Maryland-Baltimore County and majoring in pre-med, and is aspiring to be a radiologist. To date, she has earned $86,000 in scholarships to help fund her college career. Acosta was also captain of the Oxon Hill High School swim and tennis teams, the president of the International Club, and the president of the school’s Science and Technology Advisory Board.

now they want me to have straight A's throughout my whole high school career [which is my target,BTW].
and extra-curricular activities.
and a college scholarship to Johns Hopkins, or University of Maryland, or Georgetown, maybe even Harvard.
it sounds nice, but it's kind of...overwhelming.
especially since that girl above is most likely a Filipina.
and because procrastination keeps kicking in.
like,right now.

and another thing,i seriously want to cry.
my mom's going home this summer.
she already booked her flight,i think.
she needs to renew her visa,and Canada is definitely out of question,so she needs to go to the Philippines.
i want to go toooooooo.
if i can't go home this summer,i can't go back anymore.
oh life.
i wish roundtrip plane tickets would fall from the heaven.
help me Lord.

and i'm trying to learn Nihongo now.
but since i don't have money,i'm depending on free stuff.
online stuff.
my mom doesn't really approve of me liking Japanese stuff.
thinks it's a waste of time.
so i obviously cannot depend on her to buy me books.
so yeah.
this is the ultimate self-study.
help me Lord.

P.S new layout!:D
and Gabbi,you seriously need a comment box.
i wanna talk to you about your posts~ ;P

Labels: art, expectations, Nihongo, Philippines, procrastination, school, stress, summer

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gawd.
i saw him like three times this day.
he was standing by the door to his classroom in third period, talking to his friends.
they were talking about musical instruments.
besides the guitar, he said "i also play...," then he made this silly gesture with his hands like he's playing the piano.

he's so cool~
not as in bad-ass cool, but as in mysterious cool.
:3

and yeah, i was wrong.
his hair is not auburn.
i learned that auburn is actually dark blonde.-_-
his hair is some kind of orange color.
it's really awesome.
it looks so pretty on him.
yieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.*faints*
LOL.

actually, i'm really happy i got to see him.
i was so stressed.
for the past three days, i've been sleeping at 4am.
i had 4 projects due.
2 projects, Health and Biology, due last Friday.
i didn't pass it yet because i got sick and stayed home.
then i got 2 projects due today.
there's an Art collage, which is so not easy as it looks, which i passed awhile ago and earned some love from my favorite teacher.:]
and i have the English soundtrack for Romeo & Juliet, which i haven't passed yet, because i haven't finished my CD cover yet.
she said i could pass it tomorrow morning.*thanks Dr.Young!*

so yeah.
i'm currently happy.
my cold is passing, and i think my grades are now safe [i just need to learn how to play Cielito Lindo] aaaaaand only few more weeks before summer.
Memorial Day, which is yesterday, kind of officially marks the start of wearing summer clothes.
some people are actually cleaning their pools now and hosts pool parties.
happy days.
now i wish i could go to QueSci before you guys graduate.

haaaaaa~
i feel like a great burden has been lifted of my chest.
*sigh*

Labels: Mr.Cute Guy, school, stress

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