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Jireh.
that's jai-ra for you.
it's Hebrew,but i'm not.
15 years old.
Glendale School;Quezon City Science HS;Dr.Henry A. Wise HS
Love.Faith.Unity.Peace.Courage.Fidelity
Darwin.Curie.Curie.i don't know what's next.
10th Grade.
Filipino.
singing.reading.drawing.internet.daydreaming.eating.
Jpop.Jdrama.Kpop.books.manga.anime.
House MD.
JAPAN.
Yamada Ryosuke = ♥

God.memories.books.love.

let's go the top,shall we?

It's the 143rd day of the year.
I love you.:] let's go the top,shall we?

I saw my crush today.With a girl.
No,they're not a couple ,because I noticed a lack of HHWWPSSP happenings/rubbing gums action.
But his body language and huge smile gave it away.
He's obviously interested in her.
Huh.

I'm not heart-broken or anything,since it's just a crush, but I sure do feel awful.
You know, I know how he smells like even if I've never been close to him before.
I don't know where the familiarity came from,but it surprised me.
I was walking,then a familiar smell wafted on my nose,and I looked,and there he was.
That subtle scent that I thought came from a friend,was from him.
And I didn't even realize that even though I don't know a lot,like his name,or how old he is,or basic stuff like that, I really did know a lot about him.

Then I realized that I'm becoming more and more like Ayu (Honey and Clover).
You see,Ayu has a lot of suitors,but she only wants Mayama,who's in love with someone else.
I only had a couple of people that told me they liked me,but somehow,I always like someone who doesn't like me back.
Unrequited love is common, but somehow, I feel super confined to it.
Like running in a hamster wheel. Endless and pointless.
You love and love and give it your all, but in the end, you're still miserable.
Love is weird.
But you know what,I'm still happy that God gave me a really deep understanding of love even if I had little exposure to it.
It helps prepare me for the worst.

On a side note: I really hope he's happy.:] let's go the top,shall we?

"Testu: Ojou is in love with you, but I will not give her up.
Shinohara: Alright. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Kashiwagi: What? Are you two going for her? Does that mean that the three of us are rivals?
Sawada (out of nowhere): Sorry but, make that four of us."

Oh Sawada. You say the coolest lines. XD And although I don't really ship Yankumi x Sawada (because of the age gap), I can't help but spazz because MatsuJun is too perfect for the role.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

I didn't really appreciate the first one that much before because I was like what, 8 years old, when it first came out. Of course I forgot all about it! But it was really nice ne~ I don't know what's wrong with me, but I never get tired of the students-get-in-trouble-then-Yankumi-saves-the-day formula that Gokusen always had. I'm actually looking forward to those moments.O_o

But since I'm rewatching all seasons, I think I'm gonna make a list of my Top5 most favorite 3-D students of all time, which is to be updated every season I finish.

So for now:
1.Sawada Shin (MatsuJun) - Eyecandy,bad-ass attitude,and an air of coolness about him.What more could you ask for?!
2.Ogata Yamato (Takaki Yuya) - Dude. This is like Shin, but younger. And a bit more warfreak?
3.Takeda Keita (Koike Teppei) - He's actually my first Gokusen crush. LOOOOL.
4.Kumai Teruo (Waki Tomohiro) - Come on.Who doesn't love Kuma?Too adorableeeeee.
5.Kamiya Shunsuke (Miura Shohei) - Too cute to resist. :3

I guess I'll just be adding stuff to this post ne?
Jabaibai~ let's go the top,shall we?

Today I woke up thinking,"Crap!I'm gonna be late for bible study!"
Then I realized that I wasn't allowed to go back anymore.

I feel lousy. let's go the top,shall we?

Dang.
I'm squealing like an idiot on the part where Takaki reported what they saw under the Dream Associates basement.
Too cute for my own good.
Well,the whole movie made me squeal.
A lot of eyecandyyyyyy.
Kame's really cool in here too.
But it's mostly Takaki. LOL.
But I particularly like the movie because it features the Akadou 3D again.
They're my favorite batch~
I mean, I like all of them, but Akadou boys are my super favorites.
Haaaa~ Good times, good times. let's go the top,shall we?

Hi.Haberdei to my ichiban.
I'm sorry but I'm not really dedicating this blog post to you.
I know,I know.
You're seventeen now.
And I hope you're doing very well.
More power to you.

Today is miserable.
My youth leader had to tell us that since we're not attending the church,we can't go to their bible study anymore.
I know it's to protect us,and erase all suspicions of freeloading, and I think what they did was right.
But it hurts so much.
It does.
They're not just ordinary people that I know; they're family.
They helped me adjust to this foreign place when I thought I didn't belong.
I owe a lot to them.
When we transferred to another church,I thought,"At least I still get to see them on Saturdays."
And now,the thought of not being able to see them ever again makes me miserable.
It's sad.
Like leaving Philippines all over again.
They're the only true friends I have here.
The moment Kuya Mike called me,Ponjie,and Josh,I knew what he was going to tell us.
I said,"I don't want to."
But I can't really do anything,could I?
It hurts so flipping much.
And I didn't even get to say goodbye to MJ and Mitch.
And I'm really sorry Micah if I upset you.
I'm really sorry.
It's just...I'm always losing my friends.
I mean,I know you guys are always there for me,but it's different when we don't see each other.
I'll always love you people.
I will miss you all. let's go the top,shall we?