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Jireh.
that's jai-ra for you.
it's Hebrew,but i'm not.
15 years old.
Glendale School;Quezon City Science HS;Dr.Henry A. Wise HS
Love.Faith.Unity.Peace.Courage.Fidelity
Darwin.Curie.Curie.i don't know what's next.
10th Grade.
Filipino.
singing.reading.drawing.internet.daydreaming.eating.
Jpop.Jdrama.Kpop.books.manga.anime.
House MD.
JAPAN.
Yamada Ryosuke = ♥

God.memories.books.love.

i finished the JUMP-ing tour vid!
woohoo!
i LOVED it.
imma watch it again.
yaaaaaaay~

i loved it when...
wait.
i loved the whole thing!
even the encores.
i feel a bit bad for Chii-kun though.
he's trying his best to sing his old lines even though his voice already changed.
his "de" and "re" syllables are still good though.
like when he sang Itsumademo~ the "de" still sounds right.
i miss his old voice,but i accept that all people go through puberty, and he's still a person after all.
and i absolutely loved his Kawaii Kimi no Koto da Mono performance.:)

but the concert made me want to see Yama-chan badly.
what am i saying?
i'm so unrealistic.
this is embarrassing.
what if someone else reads this?
oh noes.

and yeah.
i appreciate the fact that they sang so many songs!
they had solos and stuff.
that was good.
and the trivia part was good too.
Yabu-kun is a teacher,Hikaru-kun was in a traditional uniform,Keito-kun was in his Hyakushiki uniform,YamaJimaChii and Dai-chan were wearing their Scrap Teacher uniforms,Inoo-kun was in a cute uniform and glasses and Ryuu-chan was in an elementary school outfit with a matching recorder.XD
they were all hilarious and Yabu-kun looked so cute as a kid.:D
i also LOL'd when Chii said Bokutachi ga miru yume niwa...de yume miru mae ni okichatta! [In our dreams there is...I woke up before I had time to dream!].
i almost forgot! i also liked the "Takasugi desu~" line of Yama-chan. he's awesome.
gaaaah.here i go again.

and the Yan and Kumi and "Kinpachi-sensei" part was cool.
*Chii tried to kiss Takaki.LOL.XD*
B.I.Shadow looked cute with the mice thingy on their heads.
they're the "Squeak-squeak" whatever, after all.:D
gawd,i loved this concert!
this is the best concert EVER.
i wish i was there,and i wish i got Yama-chan's autographed folder[i think that's a folder].
WHY THE HECK CAN'T I STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM?!
and also,even though i cried at Yama-chan's Moonlight,i really loved that performance.
SOMEBODY PLEASE SLAP ME NOW.

imma stop now before i say anything more about Yama-- sorry.
oyasumi~

Labels: Chinen Yuri, concert, JUMP, Yamada Ryosuke

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The smiles in my dreams, the unforgettable tears
I gaze at you and want me to hug you

You and moonlight
Don't leave me alone

Alone in the darkness of sleep, I'm aiming for the light
You are smiling at me and calling my name
If the moon disappears from the gap in the curtains
This one lonely heart on the bed will freeze

Only my emotions will burn

I'm unable to touch you, unable to do anything
Tonight I fall into my dreams alone again
You don't come smiling, you don't come to me in my dreams
Even though i know that, even though it's hard
I'll still stretch out my hand

Please don't disappear...

The light in my dreams, the sadness I'd forgotten
Even if I see you round town, you don't catch my eye
if I was told that I'd never see your smiling face again
I would be happy if tomorrow never came
I'd want to hug you, even if it was just in my dreams
Forever

You and Moonlight
Don't leave me alone
Tonight




exactly.


i didn't squeal when i watched this part in the JUMP-ing tour.
i cried.
i didn't intend to, though.
i just did.

God,would it be too much to ask if i could have a chance to see this boy?
please?
i know it may sound stupid,but if he calls my name, even just once,
that would be happiest day of my life.

*emo mode*

Labels: emo mode, JUMP, moonlight, Yamada Ryosuke

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we stayed in the same classroom for 3 hours.
3 long hours.
THREE.

but i still don't know his name.

i'm pathetic.
i bet he doesn't even look at me.

no one ever looks at me.

maybe i'm meant to be alone forever.

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gawd.
i saw him like three times this day.
he was standing by the door to his classroom in third period, talking to his friends.
they were talking about musical instruments.
besides the guitar, he said "i also play...," then he made this silly gesture with his hands like he's playing the piano.

he's so cool~
not as in bad-ass cool, but as in mysterious cool.
:3

and yeah, i was wrong.
his hair is not auburn.
i learned that auburn is actually dark blonde.-_-
his hair is some kind of orange color.
it's really awesome.
it looks so pretty on him.
yieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.*faints*
LOL.

actually, i'm really happy i got to see him.
i was so stressed.
for the past three days, i've been sleeping at 4am.
i had 4 projects due.
2 projects, Health and Biology, due last Friday.
i didn't pass it yet because i got sick and stayed home.
then i got 2 projects due today.
there's an Art collage, which is so not easy as it looks, which i passed awhile ago and earned some love from my favorite teacher.:]
and i have the English soundtrack for Romeo & Juliet, which i haven't passed yet, because i haven't finished my CD cover yet.
she said i could pass it tomorrow morning.*thanks Dr.Young!*

so yeah.
i'm currently happy.
my cold is passing, and i think my grades are now safe [i just need to learn how to play Cielito Lindo] aaaaaand only few more weeks before summer.
Memorial Day, which is yesterday, kind of officially marks the start of wearing summer clothes.
some people are actually cleaning their pools now and hosts pool parties.
happy days.
now i wish i could go to QueSci before you guys graduate.

haaaaaa~
i feel like a great burden has been lifted of my chest.
*sigh*

Labels: Mr.Cute Guy, school, stress

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i'm currently stuck in bed.
with a bottle of pills.
*i feel like a bedridden House*
but i must relate yesterday's events.
mwehehe.

just when i thought i'd never see him anymore, there he was.

i saw him!
first thing in the morning.

i was waiting for the administrators to allow us to go to our lockers, so i stayed in front of the cafeteria.
then i saw the ever familiar auburn hair.
i was so happy i almost cried.
LOL.
i really thought he was transferred to another school.
which is possible even in the last days of school.
then i thought i'd be satisfied by seeing him once a day.

then, i saw him while going to my locker in the afternoon.
i walked beside him for like, 7 seconds in the hallway.
i went in front of him afterwards, because i'm so embarrassed for unknown reasons.

theeeen, i saw him in the cafeteria during lunch.

and finally, he walked by our schoolbus during dismissal.
he even glanced at the window where i was sitting.
i doubt that he saw me, though.
but yeah, now i know his bus number.

052.

*kilig mode*

and yeah, there's a moment i forgot to mention in my previous blogs.
last whenever, i was sitting in my usual seat in the cafeteria, and i was looking around.
i noticed he wasn't there at his usual spot.
then minutes later, i suddenly turned around [dunno why] just in time as he looked up at me [did i say that he always walks with his head down?].
we were like,"oh."
do you know how freakin' awesome that is?
yieeeee.>w<

so yeah.

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from Frances,my beloved co-fangirl.mwehehe.

Hey! Say JUMP and YOU
(Q and A for HSJ fans. :D)

1. Who is your favorite among HSJ?
~YAMADA RYOSUKE my love.

2. Who/What lured you into the fandom?
~Takaki did.LOL.i was watching Gokusen 3, then i said, "OMG.this guy's so cute!" then i kinda researched about him. then i saw that he is a member of Hey!Say!JUMP, then, that's that.:)

3. What is your favorite HSJ song?
~Your Seed or Ultra Music Power.

4. What is your favorite show that features HSJ? (Shounen Club, Heisei Families, J-doramas, etc.)
~jdoramas.ALL their jdoramas.even the guestings they do in other dramas.

5. Which do you like better, Hey! Say! 7 or Hey! Say BEST?
-~the temporary HS7.*gomen ne, Keito-kun and Ryutaro-kun*

Hey! Say! 7 Part

6. Who is your favorite among HS7?
~YAMADA RYOSUKE.

7. Who do you think is the manliest in HS7?
~hmmm.Takaki (temp) and Keito(current).

8. Who do you think is the girliest in HS7?
~Chii-kun.XD

9. Temporary or Original?
~temporary.

10. Favorite song/medley performed by HS7?
~i like Wonderland Train and Hey!Say!.

Hey! Say! BEST Part

6. Who is your favorite among HSBest?
~Dai-chan. and Takaki.:D

7. Who do you think is the manliest in HSBest?
~Takaki.

8. Who do you think is the girliest in HSBest?
~Inoo~:))

9. Ya-ya-yah or JJExpress?
~JJExpress.

10. Favorite song/medley performed by Hey! Say! Best?
~Switch.Dai-chan's voice there is hawt.

Hey! Say! Random~!

16. Who do you think is the mother-figure in HSJ?
~Yabu-kun.

17. Who do you think is the father-figure in HSJ?
~Takaki.

18. Who do you think is the most spoiled?
~Chii-kun. Yama-chan said so himself.:))

19. HSJ-related forums that you have registered in:
~JUMPstart.i'm not too fond of fan forums.

20. Thoughts about ‘Chance to Change’?
~i like the part where the sing genki dashi nayo, let's fight~

21. Wish/ Hopes for HSJ?
~more power to them! and i hope to see them someday.:D

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

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i just had a recollection.

i remembered my first crush in this country because of this guy:

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there was an awards thingy tonight at school.
yehey.
i got a surprise award.
outstanding excellence in English.
oha.outstanding na, excellent pa.XD
[my teacher once bragged to another teacher that i was her "best student ever".:3]
how ironic.
i am foreigner but i got an award in English.
LOL.

so yeah. first we went inside the Performing Arts building.
artworks were displayed everywhere!
one of my artworks is displayed,too.:)
then we went inside the auditorium.
we waited for like 20 minutes before the program started.
then program started and blah blah blah, awards were given, blah blah blah.
then i got my award, blah blah blah, and i discovered the 4th Filipino in school.
you see,there are only 4 1/2 Filipinos in school [as far as i know.]
which includes me, ate Bea,some Bustamante girl, a half-Pinoy guy, and the newly discovered Valerio guy.
his grandmother even congratulated me.
haha.
after the program,we had some light refreshments.
apple cider and apricot juice [i thought i was gonna be drunk.XD], some yummy brownies, and this dark chocolate covered strawberry.uber delicious. good times.


i didn't see Mr.Cute Guy today though.
he must be absent.T-T

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3 seconds.
3 small seconds.

funny how 3 seconds of eye contact with my Mr.Cute Guy made me all giddy.
giddy, as in, to the highest level.
i couldn't stop smiling like, from third period until now.
yes, my jaws are hurting.
it was so kilig.
LOL.haha.

this is what happened.
i was inside the piano room, practicing and stuff.
then some guys were playing by the door.
when they opened it, BAM! there he was leaning on the wall across the room.
then..uhmm...i looked at him,then he saw me.
or i think it's the other way 'round.
but anyway, there it was.
THE moment.
then i needed to go to the choir room.
so i went out, said hi to Nancy by the door, and passed right in front of him.
with my head bowed of course.
ehehe.

but it was really kilig.
so i'm quite in a good mood today.
yieeee.

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hmm.
what time is it in Japan?
about...6 am?
well then.

HABERDEI MY BELOVED YAMADA RYOSUKE!

he's 16 now.
*sniff*
he grew up so fast.

mwahaha.
anyway, i had an super marvelous fantastic day today.
because i had another straight A, our awesome principal prepared a buffet for people who got straight A's.
we had chips and dip,friedcatfish[hito.LOL.],beef barbecue,corn,fried chicken,baked beans,coleslaw and other good stuff.
it was yummy.

and i met some wonderful people.
i'm so proud of myself.
i introduced myself to a WHOLE room.*while people are looking at me while saying "she's so cute~","awww" and "hey Tammy[a Japanese girl],she looks like you!"*
then i talked to a group of at least 5 people without stuttering.mwahaha.
so yeah,we were like,7 in the group.
this guy that has the locker on top of mine,an Art classmate,a Piano classmate,a German guy and three others.
they were hilarious.
we were helping Micayla[i'm not sure of the spelling],my Art classmate, study for her quiz in Algebra 2.
it was like Revenge of the Nerds:Battle at the Banquet since we were debating whether to simplify (-5+35i)/10.
but it was fun.
we talked about swine flu,scholarships,the school, and different stuff.
and my World History teacher gave me a hug before i left the classroom.
she said she was proud of me.*cries tears of joy*
so i am in a pretty good mood today.
:]

and yeah,more and more people started noticing that i exist.
they say "hi" to me in the hallways now.

the only bad thing is that i didn't see my Mr.Cute Guy today.
-_-
i saw him yesterday though.
the exact moment i opened the door of the Piano classroom,he passed and looked at me.
maybe he thought i was gonna hit him with the door

and the schoolbus was awfully quiet today.
now THAT was unusual.
my schoolbus was always noisy,with Mr.Diggs messing with other people and checking out the people walking down the street, and girls spewing off profanity like a fountain.
so yeah,it was really quiet.

but i'm happy for this really,really awesome day.

Labels: birthday, Mr.Cute Guy, school, Yamada Ryosuke

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Franceeeeeeeees.
i'm jealous.

she knows her cute guy's name.
i still don't know mine.
i've been looking at him since the start of the school year,but i still don't know his name.






imma describe him though.
he's skinny.
and kinda at my height.
his hair is auburn.pretty.he's easier to spot this way too.XD
and he's white.*no,i'm NOT racist.*
he's quiet.he rarely talks,and i never heard him curse.
his voice is good too.
and he plays the guitar.or a bass,i think.

how do i know all these things?
well,i see him everyday.
i see him in the hallways,his band classroom is next to my piano classroom,and he sits behind me during lunch.
so you see,i'm NOT a stalker.
and if i'm a stalker,then i shouldn't have a problem knowing his name.
i should even know his birthday,where he lives,his GPA,and his grade level if i'm a stalker.
LOL.

he's so cute~
mwahihihi.

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