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Jireh.
that's jai-ra for you.
it's Hebrew,but i'm not.
15 years old.
Glendale School;Quezon City Science HS;Dr.Henry A. Wise HS
Love.Faith.Unity.Peace.Courage.Fidelity
Darwin.Curie.Curie.i don't know what's next.
10th Grade.
Filipino.
singing.reading.drawing.internet.daydreaming.eating.
Jpop.Jdrama.Kpop.books.manga.anime.
House MD.
JAPAN.
Yamada Ryosuke = ♥

God.memories.books.love.

I saw my crush today.With a girl.
No,they're not a couple ,because I noticed a lack of HHWWPSSP happenings/rubbing gums action.
But his body language and huge smile gave it away.
He's obviously interested in her.
Huh.

I'm not heart-broken or anything,since it's just a crush, but I sure do feel awful.
You know, I know how he smells like even if I've never been close to him before.
I don't know where the familiarity came from,but it surprised me.
I was walking,then a familiar smell wafted on my nose,and I looked,and there he was.
That subtle scent that I thought came from a friend,was from him.
And I didn't even realize that even though I don't know a lot,like his name,or how old he is,or basic stuff like that, I really did know a lot about him.

Then I realized that I'm becoming more and more like Ayu (Honey and Clover).
You see,Ayu has a lot of suitors,but she only wants Mayama,who's in love with someone else.
I only had a couple of people that told me they liked me,but somehow,I always like someone who doesn't like me back.
Unrequited love is common, but somehow, I feel super confined to it.
Like running in a hamster wheel. Endless and pointless.
You love and love and give it your all, but in the end, you're still miserable.
Love is weird.
But you know what,I'm still happy that God gave me a really deep understanding of love even if I had little exposure to it.
It helps prepare me for the worst.

On a side note: I really hope he's happy.:] let's go the top,shall we?