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Jireh.
that's jai-ra for you.
it's Hebrew,but i'm not.
15 years old.
Glendale School;Quezon City Science HS;Dr.Henry A. Wise HS
Love.Faith.Unity.Peace.Courage.Fidelity
Darwin.Curie.Curie.i don't know what's next.
10th Grade.
Filipino.
singing.reading.drawing.internet.daydreaming.eating.
Jpop.Jdrama.Kpop.books.manga.anime.
House MD.
JAPAN.
Yamada Ryosuke = ♥

God.memories.books.love.

Okay.So I finally decided to check my blog after a gazillion years,and this is the first thing I saw.

• exfriend:'c SHE JUST ASKED ME IF I MISS JIREH LEE. I LAUGHED. I LAUGHED BECAUSE I WANTED TO SAY YES, BECAUSE I REALLY DO. BUT I JUST LAUGHED.
  

  2010-06-22 11:00 AM

• exfriend:'c I RARELY SMILE, BUT I ACTUALLY LAUGHED WHEN THE QUESTION WAS THROWN ON MY FACE. IT HAS HURT MY PRIDE, YOU KNOW THAT?
  

  2010-06-22 11:03 AM

• exfriend:'c BECAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T MISS ME. I PROLLY HAVEN'T CROSSED YOUR MIND IN THE PAST TWO YEARS. REALLY. I THOUGHT YOU CONSIDER ME YOUR FRIEND.
  

  2010-06-22 11:05 AM

• exfriend:'c I LOVED YOU, BEST FRIEND. I USED TO. AND I STILL DO. BUT I MIGHT AS WELL FORGET ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP BCOZ IT SEEMS THAT YOU ALREADY DID. KUDOS. IH8U.
  

  2010-06-22 11:07 AM

HNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGH.D:

I don't know what I did,honest. And I don't like telling other people what I feel because I would look like an idiot,but I think I should right now.

God knows I treasure every single friend I have,best or not.I don't like being alone,you know.It kills me.That's why when someone talks to me,I cherish the moment.And I never forget it.Every single thing that happened to me that involved my friends,I remember.Everything.Why do you think I cry on my pillow every single flipping night for two years? BECAUSE I CAN'T LET GO OF THE FREAKING PAST. I died a little when 4 years ago a friend told me she didn't want to be friends with me anymore because I don't "give her enough attention".That's not true.I know what it feels like to be not given attention,so I don't want that to happen to anyone.And now,someone hates me.Again.

Hey,'exfriend'.I think I know who you are.If I'm right,then can I just say this? YOU'RE AN IDIOT.How can you think that I haven't thought of you for the past 2 years?I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU.You're one of the bestest friends I ever had,an how the heck can you think that I could just throw that away?If you're really my friend,then you know me.You know that I don't like pushing myself in peoples' faces.I know you have a happy life now,and I don't wanna be the girl who just butts in and thinks it's cool.I have a freaking inferiority complex,you know.You've always been the popular one.I'm never one of those.Call me stupid,but I've always thought that you're too cool for me.I don't say cool stuff, I don't dress fashionably,and I'm certainly not pretty.But you're the girl that every guy wanted.We're different.But I still loved you,because you were my friend.I said I'd keep in touch.But I was scared.BECAUSE I KNOW IT WOULD NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.Nothing ever does.Don't you think it's unfair that you say that I don't care about you?I loved you.I always did.I still do.You said you hate me.I love you.I miss you a lot.I hope you're happy now.

If I got the wrong person,I'm sorry.Maybe I really don't deserve your friendship after all.But please tell me your name.So I'll never make the same mistake again.

Oh and whoever you are,I wish you all the best.I hope you never find someone like me.So you'll never get hurt again.Thank you for everything you have done for me.I'm sorry.

let's go the top,shall we?