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Jireh.
that's jai-ra for you.
it's Hebrew,but i'm not.
15 years old.
Glendale School;Quezon City Science HS;Dr.Henry A. Wise HS
Love.Faith.Unity.Peace.Courage.Fidelity
Darwin.Curie.Curie.i don't know what's next.
10th Grade.
Filipino.
singing.reading.drawing.internet.daydreaming.eating.
Jpop.Jdrama.Kpop.books.manga.anime.
House MD.
JAPAN.
Yamada Ryosuke = ♥

God.memories.books.love.

ohisashiburi~
it's been a really long time since i posted.
so yeah.
i'm currently in Georgia with my sister,her husband,my oh so cute niece Ysabelle and my step-nephew Ethan.

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i just finished chatting with Arjan and Meggie.
when they asked "when will you go here?", i died a little inside.
i really really really want to say,"soon!" but i know i can't.
my mom left for the Philippines today,and judging by her attitude the whole summer,we can't afford another ticket.

it's not gonna happen.
when summer started,i asked my mom if i can go home.
she said no,but i still hoped and prayed that i can.
i still pray.
i stay awake at night praying that maybe,just maybe,it's God's will to let me go home just one more time.
i want to see you guys before you graduate.
i want to say proper goodbyes.
i know i won't be able to see you even if i come back next year.
not a single one.

you know how sad that is?
i cry my heart out at night,but nobody cares.
the world won't stop for me.
and you know what else,Arjan,Meggie,Christine and Gabbi told me that Ira Noblejas went home.
alone,i think.
my parents won't ever allow that.
i don't dare suggest the topic,lest they think that i'm selfish and inconsiderate,since i've only spent a year here,and my dad needs to see my grandma.
but they don't understand how badly i want this.
nobody does.
well,maybe my Ate April does.
nobody else.

i sit here crying silently, hoping my little sister won't hear it.
she did.
you know what she said?
"Ate,matulog ka na nga!Kanina ka pa diyan eh,isusumbong kita kay Mama.Dapat kanina ka pa tapos diyan blah blah blah..."
my sister is very encouraging,no?

so you see why i always say i'm sad?
because when i left,i left a piece of my heart in Quesci.
and i'm not gonna get it back anytime soon.

and you know what else is sad?
me pouring my heart to a blog that only Frances and Gabbi would ever bother to read.
thanks for always being there for me.
i greatly appreciate it.
i love you so much.

so i guess that's it,huh?
something i'll regret and think about for the rest of my life. let's go the top,shall we?